Speaking of Goodbye: Forget bittersweet its just painful

So I have this chest pain and while I've been having a lot of tests done these days poking, probing, x raying, this ill can't be seen; its the one you feel when your heart is breaking. No meds to cure.

Don't misunderstand, I am looking forward to new adventures at Mesa, truly, but right now its hard to see past the great people I've chosen to walk away from.

I have always said, PV has an exceptional, group of individuals working here; especially in the LTD and not to mention faculty. I had no idea four years ago when I started, that I would depend so much on other people. Its amazing when you work with fun, talented individuals how the world of opportunities open up to you; what we can accomplish together. All good things come from supportive bosses, a talented trainer, an exceptional artist & developer, whiz of a database wizard, and fun, clever network admins who help us play, amazing IT director, faculty willing to play and take risks, the list goes on.

Why would I leave? Its a good question & one I asked myself (a lot) when I got the offer. So I wrote my "Do I go" pro/cons list. My cons...as in the reasons to stay, were filled with people. In fact it was mostly people, it went on extensively with names. The pro side was filled with job opportunity items (sorry MC, I don't know you guys yet!) When it came down to it, the Con list was filled with the one thing I could not control...people staying.

I'm heartbroken to leave, its my roots, my home...but sometimes, even in a home you adore, for a million possible reasons, you'll find yourself hanging a "For Sale" sign out front. I just hope I'm leaving it in better condition then when I arrived, I know it did for me. For my own team, Sam, Chrystle, and Vanessa, ouch is all I can say, ouch.